-= we are you dreaming =-

And so it begins, the start of the new week. The start of the reoccuring scheduled life.

Electrics was okay. In fact, it was easy lah eh...

Then MEK. Lucky last week's practical was cancelled. So was able to pass up last last week's assigment. Kekekekek.

Thanks ar Jus. Throw chicken at me. Shirt dirty. Not cool ar...

Blergh.

As one, we skipped App Mech. No difference lah.. Go, never go, still pass... For now...

Went home. Slept. Woke up at six. Was wondering why it was so bright. Then I remembered, it was 6pm lah... Thought 6am... Caught in a time lapse. Nyaah...

Now I have nothing to do.

I think I'll stone. Yeah, that's a good idea. See ya!

This was written at 9:14 pm on Monday, February 28

-= i've got to be cool, relax... =-

Spend hours at Ban's place playing PS2. Wee~

Nice to relax and not feel stressed for once.

Okay. Gonna go cut my nails then sleep. Have a nice Sunday.

This was written at 1:27 pm on Sunday, February 27

-= have a pleasant afternoon =-

How do you do?
Have yourself, a pleasent afternoon.
Well, fuck you too,
Tonight's the one I choose, for you!

I'll kill myself,
I'll blow my brains onto the wall.
See you in Hell,
I will not take this anymore.
Now this is where ends, this is where I will draw the line,
So excuse me while, I end my life.

I will pull this through,
Not having a reason's no excuse.
What the Hell do you,
Suppose that I have left to lose?

*Spoken* I'll kill myself...
I'll kill myself
See you in Hell
I'll kill myself
See you in Hell
I'll kill myself
See you in Hell
I'll kill myself
See you in Hell

I'll kill myself,
I'll blow my brains onto the wall!
See you in Hell,
I will not take this anymore!
This is where it ends,
I put a bullet in my head.
Oh yes I did.

This is where it ends,
This is where I will draw the line.
Excuse me while....
I kill myself.

And another feel good song. Weee~

This was written at 2:31 pm on Saturday, February 26

-= the tide keeps turning and i'm left yearning =-

Oh goodie. I created a playlist of Extra Depressing Rock tunes.

Now let me go cry my eyes out.

This was written at 8:24 pm on Friday, February 25

-= i wanna fall over a railing, i wanna crash into a building =-

How cool is this song title? World Hate Center.

We live in a world of hate. Right? I guess so. You hate me, I hate you, we hate everybody. So how? Where does that leave harmony? I don't know. Ask yourself.

I'm getting sick of this plain old life. Wouldn't it be fun if I were to quit school then wander the earth and see it's 7 wonders and find the 8th one?

I hate school. It sucks. It's boring and time wasting. I don't seem to understand why the hell we have to learn so many stuff when in the end it doesn't apply to our lifestyle in the future.

I'd make a bad Prime Minister.

Popcorn is addictive. Have you ever wondered? You eat one, then you can't seem to stop.

Aggressive melodic power thrash metal. Get it?

I don't.

But I like it! :)

I want the 11 Dreams tee. It's so bloody nice.

I am very sleepy now. Everything irritates me at this point. And the fact that Erez told me to come online to discuss stuff AND HE IS NOT RESPONDING TO ANYTHING I SAY IS EXTREMELY FRUSTRATING!!!!

I just wanna slap him in the face.

Let me just go bang my head on the guitar. Or bang the guitar on my head. Nah... Let me just hang myself upside down from a rope on the ceiling.

Here, have some gum. Please sit down. Hello. Please sit down. Here, have some gum.

Okay. I better stop rambling about moos and mahs already. Night.

This was written at 10:22 pm on Thursday, February 24

-= sunset 28 =-

Give her love and protection

give her all, all the things she need

give her faith and a reason

make her feel brighter than the sun

tell her that she's special

tell her that she's valuable

carry on for tomorrow

carry on even if it's hard

Leave him in the sunset 28

to remember the moments in the sun

and the diamond that lost her world today

will keep on shining brighter than the sun

Ease her pain and her guilts

tell her that no one really knows

help her find new solutionshelp her while she is still a child

without no farewell

we will never forget the moments in the sun

Leave him in the sunset 28
to remember the moments in the sun
and the diamond that lost her world today
will keep on shining brighter than the sun

Sunset 28 by Beseech

This was written at 10:57 pm on Wednesday, February 23

-= this is how it seems =-

I am seriously out of ideas to blog. So yeah, any ideas? Please contribute.

Quote of the day : A good conversion means talking to someone who you can be yourself, trust and can joke to. -Mike from Big Unknown 2

This was written at 6:56 pm on Tuesday, February 22

-= you take my life but i'll take yours too =-

Spending the night at Erez's place was sort of a soul searching kinda thing. Got connected to the hidden madman inside of me. Woooyeah!!!!!!!!!!!

Watched lots of metal vids. Steelheart's She's Gone video was so... Emo? Heh.

Finally~~~~~
I got the two CDs I ordered!!! Woo!! Lotta!! Hahah.

Did you watch The Wedding Singer? Billy Idol was in it!!! Hahah. And there was a Van Halen tee!! Man... I want that.

Fear of the dark~ Fear of the dark~ I have a constant fear that something's always near~

Okay. I think I'm high. Bye.

This was written at 9:39 pm on Sunday, February 20

-= baik ar juf =-

Met Erez's band. Kinda cool bunch of guys. We have a Kurt Cobain look alike. A malay speaking white boy. An oversized singer. One dope of a guitarist and lastly a very quiet drummer.

Went to Juf's place. Fuiyoo.... Happening... Can't wait for our first session.

Staying at Erez's place for the night. So yeah. I'm blogging at his place now. He's currently sleeping while the Iron Maiden DVD is on. Hahah. Cool show. Mixing Iron Maiden with a magic show.

Okay. I think I wanna sleep. Cheerio.

This was written at 12:38 am on

-= i wonder..... =-

Hahah. Went to YJC yesterday. Ended up playing in the rain. Hahah.

Went to Mie's place and played Tekken Tag. Hahah.

Okay.

Today gonna be busy. So don't expect me to be online.

Okay. Bye.

This was written at 9:23 am on Saturday, February 19

-= misc reads =-

http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&u=/nm/odd_penis_reconstruction_dc

This was written at 10:23 am on Friday, February 18

-= please... go away... =-

The damn pain is getting worse... Can't walk properly... But I think it'll get better soon.

Lalalala...

Went cycling yesterday. Saw a bush fire. Saw the fall of the season. Mie tumpanged Feez. They both fell along the way. Hahah.

Oral presentation tomorrow. Need to wear formal clothes. Blerghhhh... Pui pui.

Okay. My wife's all cranky and stuff. Gotta go. Bye.

The letter for today is 3.

This was written at 8:51 pm on Thursday, February 17

-= of ups and downs =-

After finding out my MEK 1 result sucked, who could have asked for better marks today. Highest for safety test. Full marks. Hahah. 98 for VB. So yeah...

Okay gotta go.

This was written at 9:05 pm on Tuesday, February 15

-= happy valentine's day =-

Oh well, it's that time again. Couples declare their love for each other. People declare love for their crushes and whatsoever. I don't get it. Why can't they just do it on any day? Why Valentine's Day? There should be Single's Day as well. Hahah.

Didn't go to school today cos I had some pain in some area. Cannot tell. Wait you laugh.

Caught up with some sleep. Didn't sleep the night cos of the 2 wonderful La Liga matches. So yeah.

My studies have been rather slack lately. I think I have to start studying soon. Means less time on com. Maybe I'll join the Mugging Club. If there is any.

Please make the itching stop... Okay. Goodbye.

This was written at 8:04 pm on Monday, February 14

-= |l|ll|||l|l||ll|| =-

Why is it that I have to suffer on Sundays?

Sort of cleaned my room.

I think I want to study applied mech.

Maybe not.

School reopens tomorrow. Frankly speaking, I don't really feel like going to school. Anymore. However somebody said education is important and we all believed that. So that's practically the main reason why I go to school.

Ever wondered if it would be nice if nobody went to school. All of us will have the same education level. Then there'll be no competition. Everyone will live happily together.

I still don't know what to do when I grow up. Marine Engineer? I don't know if that is what I really want. Being away from friends and family. Maybe I'll find my solace. Maybe not.

What's next for me? I don't know. I'll probably just finish this poly course, complete my NS and wait for some job opening. I don't mind making $1000 a month. As long as I am happy that would be fine.

Now, I just feel like going out of my house and take a long long walk. Just wander around aimlessly. Maybe I'll find an envelope containing 51 million dollars in it. Maybe I'll bumb into a murderer and get killed. Or maybe even I'll meet someone. However, in this world, this would be considered unfruitful and a complete waste of time so I won't do that.

So for now, I'll just sit here and stare at the monitor.

This was written at 2:25 pm on Sunday, February 13

-= you should find a musician wife =-

Was torn between 2 choices. Go to class or follow Wan to the Helloween tribute gig with a girl friend of his.

Weighing my choices, I decided to go to class. I just felt like if I went, I would probably just stand there alone and headbang to the music. Of course headbanging alone wouldn't be nice. Besides, I don't want to embarassed Wan by telling him the right title of the song every time he says the wrong one. So yeah, I went to class.

I was glad I made the choice. I don't know why but I kinda prefer going to class without Wan. Things seem more relaxed and easy going. Learned few stuff to do on the keys and also some extra stuff.

The teacher talked about her love life. Hahah. How nice. She met her husband for the first time at City Music when he was her teacher there. He was 17 and she was 20. She said she had a crush on him for 2 years before actually telling him. How nice I thought. 2 souls brought together by music. Hai... Then she said, "Next time, when you're looking for a wife, find a musician." I sort of laughed. Hahah. That will be almost impossible lah dei... Hahah.

Went to collect the CD I ordered. $32. Worth every cent of it. I'll give it a 8.5 out of 10 this time. 3 more CDs to go and I'll be a happy man.

Talked to my mom and granny about guys these days. How Malay guys nowadays are all looking for Chinese girls. Erezuwan was the main guy involved as he keeps on talking bout how nice Chinese girls are. I won't disagree on that ah... But then... They aren't really my type lah. Even my mom and granny said, "Susah nanti kalau kluar ngan pompan ciner..." Didn't say why but I think I got what they mean.

Another thing my mom said was that she wanted me to find a land job. She prefers me to stay here than sail. Might be a good option but sailing offers a better career. But then, money isn't everything. Maybe I'll just get some day job like working at a mama shop or what ar... Heh.

Van Halen's Dreams rules. You should check it out. For all that's worth, I think I'll stop now. Goodnight everyone.

This was written at 10:07 pm on Saturday, February 12

-= can i say more? =-

Congrats to Marceles.
They beat us 5-4.
Can't blame anyone but ourselves lah...
So yeah... There you go.

Class starts in 2 hours. So yeah... Gonna rest then head out in an hour's time. Good day everyone.

This was written at 12:54 pm on

-= tesla - love song =-

Man... I love that song.

Trip to Johor was a bloody waste of time.

The cinema showed only 7 movies. 2 chinese shows. Gerak Khas 3. Elektra, Constantine and Shall We Dance. None were available by the way. Made me feel good to actually pay $8 to watch a movie at Yishun. Hah.

Went to have dinner instead. Food wasn't that good either.

Best thing was, we got caught in a jam on the way back. Lucky I brought my discman. Or else I would have died of boredom.

Hai...

Well, at least there's somethings to look forward to tomorrow.

Mayon-Marceles game.
One of the 4 cds I ordered has arrived.
Keyboard class.
Weee!

Alamak... I can't sleep. How?

Glarb...

This was written at 12:37 am on

-= out all night =-

I won't be home tonight. I'm going out with my family to who knows where. If you have anything to ask, please SMS me. I'll try to reply considering the fact that I don't have Auto-Roaming. Yeah, you guessed it. I'm going to Johor.

Oh well. Gotta go. Bye.

This was written at 8:46 pm on Friday, February 11

-= The Wind Chime =-

A bright red clay canopy,
Five little silver rods.
To a string,
Was a piece of maple attached.
What a splendid piece it was.

By a little bronze hook,
It was hung.
In the small corner,
Of her room.

All alone she hung,
Watching the world in silence.
She watches the world around,
Changing, evolving.
Oh, how she yearned to be like that.

Everyday she waits,
For the wind to blow.
Minutes, hours.
Even days for the next gust.

One bright sunny day,
She pondered to herself,
How much longer must I wait?

Suddenly,
The sky turned gray.
Clouds started closing in.
The sun was slowly disappearing.

Then she felt something.
It was a small gust of wind.
The familiar chiming was heard.

It got louder.
The chiming.

The sky grew darker.
Dark clouds moved in.
The bright yellow sun,
Was no where in sight.

The small little gust quickly grew,
Into a strong gale.

Never before,
Had she felt such a thing.
She dearly held on,
To the little bronze hook,
Her lifeline.

Out of the blue,
A strong blow from the heavens.
She felt her grasp slipping.
Is this it? She thought.

It was the last straw,
A final blow.
It took her off the hook,
Plunging to the ground.

Into little pieces,
Her canopy was shattered.

Shattered it was.
Broken.
All her dreams to be like everyone else.
So, there she laid.
A fragile little wind chime,
Shattered by a fall.
Only to be left to be swept away by someone.

The End.

Can you relate to this? I sure can. That's why I wrote this.

This was written at 10:19 pm on Thursday, February 10

-= day 2 =-

And yet again... Another boring day. Slept through most of it. Supposed to help Aliff but I sort of fell asleep. Heh. Sorry ar babe.

Okay... The hunk is back... Scroll down abit only...

Watched Cannonball Run 2. Funny movie. I love funny movies. Especially those where you just sit and watch and laugh your ass off without having to think much.

Nyahahahah... You all tomorrow school. Hahahahah!

How time flies... In another 5 months plus I'm gonna be 18. Who would have thought I would be 18? All the things about being 18 comes pouring down just like that. NS, girlfriends, studies, marriage, motorbike and all the other crap. Why is it I can't live the life I had few years ago now with out feeling weird? Guess that's what growing up is all about. The older we get, the more boring life gets. You lose friends, you gain enemies. Things become irritatingly routined. You can't sit down for a minute and not have anybody tell you to get up and do something. Things you enjoyed when you are young tend to fade off. You have nothing to do except work, work and more work everyday.

Is this the life I want?

My answer's as good as yours.

Oh well... Goodnight.

This was written at 7:58 pm on

-= argh... =-

Argh... Stomach cramps... Argh...

This was written at 3:55 am on

-= i wonder what to type today =-

I just can seem to think of any other day that was as boring as today.

Freddy and Kendra won the Amazing Race. Probably that was the most amazing thing that happened today.

Need I say more? I think I am the most boring person in the world.

Lalalalala....

I think I better go to sleep. Goodnight.

This was written at 11:53 pm on Wednesday, February 9

-= ma music =-

Okay. No more music here. Just too lazy to find a nice one. If you wanna listen to my music though, you can tune in to my radio station at Launchcast Radio that is. My user is thaqif_20. Or, you can start an audio conversation with me and listen to my cds. Heh.

This was written at 10:37 am on

-= no title =-

My com is really being a hag. Internet connection is dying. I am actually typing this in Wordpad so that I can copy then paste it onto blogger. All I have is at most what? 10 minutes of online time?

Haiz...

Flu been's bugging me since yesterday. Going to school to play soccer was a major waste of time. Played 1 game then was chased out of the school.

Went home and slept after that.

Argh!!!

Sometimes I wonder what will happen if I were to do certain things. Like erm... Ah... That's for me to know and for you to find out ar.

I wonder how I wonder why?

K ah. Nothing to blog about today. Anyone up for a trip to Penin this week? Guess no one is.

This was written at 9:43 pm on Tuesday, February 8

-= .,<>**%! wosh! =-

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-= .,<>**%! wosh! =-

This was written at 9:41 pm on

-= cd day =-

And so there I was. Hoping I could finally have some decent sleep. Then what happened? Mie called at 9.59am. Hai...

Got up anyways.

Mie wanted to burn a CD. So we went to Fizo's place as the NUFAN cd was with him. Then the discovery of the season was made. After having his computer for a month? I think. Fiz found out that the CD drive wasn't a burner. Baik ar...

So we had to use his sister's one. Burned the disc. Then went back to my place.
Mie tried the disc on his discman. Cannot. Why? Because the CD is CD-RW and his discman could not play CD-RW discs.

So how? Go to shop and buy CD-R.

So we went to buy CD-R ar. At last we got to burn the disc. While waiting for the disc to be burned, I actually took my dad's Ataris CD and listened to it. I still wonder my dad would buy a CD by The Ataris. However though, it was okay ar.

I think we are going to play soccer in AI tomorrow.

Haiyah... Found out some interesting stuff today. Haiz...

I think I'll go sleep. Again. K. Bye.

This was written at 8:09 pm on Monday, February 7

-= have your lunch. have some fun. =-

Didn't actually do that but I sure did have some fun yesterday.

Went to the Esplanade with Liza Kambing, Mie Goreng Pedas and Azzuri Fizzy. Went there to catch Mocca play. Before Mocca there was this band. Couple or was it Couples? However, I kinda remebered them from Baybeats last year. They played interesting songs. Funny and easy songs but nice. Hahah.

Then it was Mocca's turn. Fiz went gaga over the singer. Gotta say she does have a nice voice. They played acoustic versions of their songs. They were not really I'm used to listening to but at they're good. In their style of playing that is.

Met Yas and Lisa after the performance. Fiz and Yas went to try and get pics of the Mocca singer. Fiz got 5 pics. 4 blurred ones. What dah... Hahahah.

Headed to MacDonalds after that. Mie and Fiz raced to see who ate his burger the fastest. Fiz triumphed over Mie even though he had no sauce. Mie complained that his burger was spicy. Heh.

On the way back, we planned what to do about Feez's birthday. Liza suggested to go down at Yishun and give a call to him. However, that bugger slept already. Mie actually called Feez's home and got scolded by Feez's dad. Kesian... In the end we had to resort to sms. Which he only replied in the morning.

Hai... Been longing for days like this. Guess the don't come by often. Next thing to look forward to is the Mayon-Marceles game. Wonder if the 23-game unbeaten run will continue after that.

Okay. Til the next time. Goodbye. And yes. Happy birthday Feez! Hah...

This was written at 10:07 am on

-= 4-3.... grrr =-

Okay. Sorry to all my blog fans for not blogging. Today I shall make up for the days gone.

Two nights ago, I had this eerie dream. Something like Resident's Evil. My whole family turned into vomit throwing zombies and I was the only normal person left. They kept vomitting at me. I got so fed up and ran away to Johor. Then, everything was back to normal. Hahah...

Friday...

What did I do? Oh yah... Rebecca wanted to make this OBS reunion. In the end, it ended up with only 3 people. Her, Wilson and me. Hai... Talked about stuff at BK before playing pool for a while. Which I sucked at ar... No form ar..

Had a match in the morning just now. Although we won 4-3, I wasn't really to pleased with our performance. We've been slacking lately. Our free flowing play is gone man... Where has it gone to?? It better return next Saturday. Big match. Marceles-Mayon. Bring it on marn...

Went to keyboard class alone just now. Wan had some donno what eat eat food thing. Finally I could play Love Me Tender properly. Learned the proper way to play double notes. Now I can play She's Gone intro like water. Hahah. Mocca played just now. Yas says that they are playing again tomorrow. Weee...

Okay. Gotta go. Kapoosh!

This was written at 11:14 pm on Saturday, February 5

-= dilah patrol ar fiz? =-

Aper sajer lah ni Fiz... Memacam. But, styling.

Mie came over in the morning. Taught him how to play She's Gone. Can make it ar.

Went to school for BST test. Go in class, write name, wrote few letters, drew 4 lines, circled some letters, then finish. 5 minutes. Weee~

Checked out the open house. Many people. Ishk. Jus, An and the rest of the itchy people looked for girls while Mie, Fiq and I had to wait for them outside. Met Soo Wan and Kelvin on the way to the MRT. Decided to give them a tour of the school. Borrowed Spaceballs from the library. Hahah. Gonna watch it tomorrow or later.

Ehh! Wrestling... Hahah. Bye.

This was written at 11:54 pm on Thursday, February 3

-= singnet =-

Singnet is crapped up. Temporarily out for some time. Blergh.

This was written at 11:26 pm on Wednesday, February 2

-= ashes to ashes =-

Sic transit gloria mundi. (Latin)

So the glory of this world passes away. (An exclamatory phrase used at the installations of the popes.)

Man... I love the phrase.

This was written at 9:52 am on

-= KORG N5EX =-

MEK1... Hai... VB... Best!

Plan to pool was cancelled cos Yas had donno what class. So went home bored. Mie came over with Dol. However they only stayed for a while cos my dad suddenly asked me to follow him to Pasir Ris. Sorry ar babes.

Went there to take the keyboard. Was an old model but still, it's a keyboard. Played it from 6pm just now. Hahahah. So fun.

Electric test tomorrow. Hmmm... Gotta go study it soon. After this highlights show that is.

Okay. I think I'll go now. Bye.

This was written at 1:14 am on